Commentary on ACIM Lesson 219

© 2010 Rev. David Seacord

I am not a body. I am free.

The thing that my heart has been pondering of late is whether to ask to do anything or not..... I am referring to my father, and his physical condition.....

I, like everyone I know, have points of view that I organize my life around. One of mine is that the mainstream culture has missed the boat in terms of health and vitality by a wide margin. In my personal family I am the extremist rawfood health-nut weirdo (that is loved.... but known to be crazy), and for the last twenty years, next to me on the continuum has been my father (who has explored a lot of alternative health thinking and been inspired to attempt to live some of them). He and I have had many experiences and conversations about alternative health, and it is a great disappointment to him that his health is so poor right now, as he had always expected to reach a much riper age than 89....

Other than a sister who is pretty hip, the rest of my family are 'mainstream', at least when it comes right down to who/what are you going to put your faith in, medically speaking. Two are RN's with professionally validated opinions.

But, back to the point... As I was saying, I have been wondering if I should 'ask to do anything'. This means, I, believing in the healing power of rawfoods, have been challenged knowing that there is 'at least a possibility' I could nurse my father back to health IF I could enroll my family in allowing me to use 100% raw healing theory and practice... i.e., no half-measures, no compromises (which has been, in my view, what has been going on). So right now it's kind of at the moment of choice.... like.... 'Ok guys, you all see how it's going, and you're all pretty much sure now it's only a question of when.... so are you willing to give me a chance, even if you don't believe any of it?'

Tonight I stopped thinking about it and opened my mouth. First to my mother (Mom, please let me try, because it will be too late after he dies...), then to Dad ( Dad, I believe if we gave you only fresh juices (which have tons of nutrition), and nothing solid (because digesting solids uses up too much of your energy and leaves you exhausted), that your body would begin to heal... would you like to try? Yes, Son, I would like to try...), then explaining my proposal to power-of-attorney brother with RN wife, and then to RN sister.... both who are now 'thinking about it'.... (I will let you know....).

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Anyway, what did opening my mouth do? It opened my heart. And, it opened my eyes too. Before I opened my mouth, I see I was secretly agreeing with what my eyes were telling me... that my Dad doesn't have long to live, and that he was past the possibility of survival.... it was only a matter of time.

But to speak the possibility that my heart had been talking to me about.... THAT suddenly changed something in me... and the KNOWING that there is no true death-need found a place to stand in me. Then, from that KNOWING, I began to see differently.... All of the circumstances that had seemed insurmountable no longer seemed that have the same strength, and my heart lifted itself into the possibility, like the 'little engine that could'.... that I could do something, and that something could make a big difference to my father. And my mother, and my family....

As I have told my family 'I will not battle them to do this', it is clearly an 'enrollment conversation'. And I am not promising them any miracles.... the stage is late.... but the important thing is I found the courage to act, and to speak my heart to my siblings (which are often the hardest people to do that with... if your family of origin is 'dysfunctional'...and mine 'was'...).

The power of prayer.... I realized today I have not been using it, though I know it is real, and that it can protect, heal, and transform any situation. I therefore ask each of you for your support through prayer or affirmation... that both my father and I and all my family be blessed on this journey (whatever the outcome), and that God's will that Love be realized be done. What it looks like is: I am not a body. I am free. :-)

Namaste,

David

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Lesson 219

I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.

(199) I am not a body. I am free.

I am God's Son. Be still, my mind, and think a moment
upon this. And then return to earth, without confusion
as to what my Father loves forever as His Son.

I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.